22/12/11

今天舞蹈比赛结束了。
心情是开心但是也有不舍。
六年的童军生活充满了我的人生。
我还有一项体能比赛。
比完后，还有营火会我的中学生涯就结束了。
人生就是一辆开往坟墓的火车。
在这条路上，会有很多停站。
你只能带一些东西上车。
其中一个是回忆。

21/12/12

Today you unhappy.
Why you don't want to tell me????
Am I not trustable???
Or I'm you nobody?


I'm kinda tired when I talk to you Le.
You sad thing if I ask otter people, they will know.
But the worst thing is something they know, I don't know.



Why don't you when you feeling telling everything then we chat.



Seeing the sky alone. Something is just a dream.

20/12/12

在同一片天空，从不同的角度看到的东西是完全不同的。
与不同的人看也有不同的心情。
你是否也在看同一片天空？
天上的星星很美。
真的很美。城市里的人，为什么没看到天空的美？

18/12/11

I really don't like people that all the time talks about money.
That makes me feel like money is more important.
It is important. I didn't disagree about it.



I really hope for another day you will care about me like yesterday.
But I don't know will it happen again.

13/12/11

Today is the worst day of my life.
I'm kinda regret I taking part of scout competition.
Wasting my time.
And the thing that make me mad, is that they didn't told me about today's practice and they got scold by our dancing tutor.
And they scold back me for be a leader that didn't responsible.

What the fuck now?!!!!
You scold me because you kena scold?!
You better take care of the word you saying!

4/12/11

These few days I been thinking.

Many things had flow through my mind.

I been thinking of university.

I also been thinking of working.

I don't know how to decide le.

Sometime when there is too many choices is not a good things.

Now, I make up my mind.

I'll go to the university or collage that you choose.

If that collage have to course that I want.

If not, I'll go for work.

Maybe you will be thinking this guy is crazy.

Yes, maybe I'm.

I really can't think about life without you.

I can't imagine.

But I know it will be very painful.

4/12/11

Today, I go lim teh.

Good is that my mum didn't call me and make me go home.

But My Honey de parent always calling.

Yah, I know parent is always worry about their children.

But didn't they feel about overdo?

Honey, from the beginning I've been waiting for the time that both of our parent agree about our relationship.

But I think that it will be longer then I thought.

The end of this year is coming closer.

After this year, we will be facing one of the challenge.

It's kinda painful.

I not really like it.

But there is nothing I can do.

Honey, I love you till forever.

1/12/11

Today go Times Square with honey.

But this time, we take LRT.

From the time I got driving licence, I didn't thought that I will be taking Train anymore.

You know what?

Actually not we don't like public transport.

Just that they never arrive on time.

Today very happy.

Didn't see you for three day the feeling so wired.

You been telling me that you want to go for university or collage.

You know what?

I really want to spend more time with you.

When you go there, the time for us together will be very less.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

How to build a family?

How to earn money fast?

And many more.

Yah, maybe you will laugh at me "Why you think it now?"

Haha.

After 5 years or 10 years later, all the property and everything's price will raise.

By that time, the income that I earn will enough to maintain a family?

22/11/11

Sometime you need to face something you fear or dislike the most.
This is life.
But you know what?
I didn't have it.

I really useless.
Can't do anything.
All I do is rubbish.
I'm so selfish.
I'm a jealously guy.
I'm a dumb guy.

Just now, I was hoping you just chat with me a bit longer.
But you just say don't jealous then bye bye.
You know how hurt is me?
Oh yah, you not me. You can't feel it.
Let me tell you, it is damn pain.


In life, not every wish will come true.
Not even in dream.

18/11/11(second post)

Life never will goes the way you want it to.
It will just goes how it should be.

I not really coloured hair people.
Because you are born for who you are and how you look.
Why you want to make something to cover yourself?
This world is full of lies and fake.
I honestly don't like this kind of people.
Why you want to lie people?
When you lie people, can you lie yourself?
Because of money, everyone tried to become a person that is heartless.
All the people in the world care of is the money.
They never care how people feel.

I HATE PEOPLE THAT LIVE BEHIND THE MASK!!!!

18/11/11

Maybe you don't know yet.
I really hate people lie.
That is why I don't really like to lie.

And also don't like people fake.
Smile so happy but her/his heart no really want to smile.

Sometimes I want to tell you something, but I don't have the braveness to speak it out.

Everyone has weekness.
But I think, I had the most many weekness.

15/11/11

Maybe I'm just still not important enough for you.
Why you will think of FaceTime someone and never think of FaceTime me?
I was hoping you will use the line or viber to call me, but you didn't.
I'm so disappointed.
An I the one that flash through your mind?
I can't really sure that.
What I can sure is that, I'm the most stupidest person in the world.

14/11/11

Today you go to Singapore Le.
I so miss you a, honey.
You only when reached here the day after tomorrow.
There is a bit long.
These three days is the longest days of my life.
Honey, hope you peace and safe.
I love you.

Scout

All I want to say is, sorry all scout.
I really so tired of scouting Le.
It really almost takes all time away.
Scout really gives me a lot of memories, but as you grow older, you life will never be that simple.
You need to make money for your family.
You need to work.
You have your own social life.
Not everything is scout.
When you middle-school ends, your scout life will end as well.
I really regret that I took this event.

I hate life

Really company is more important then family?!!!
What a luck!!!
Fuck!!!
That is why I don't like this home.
This week, I really having a bad week.
I am starting to feel that you are dumping me.
I felt ignore.



Maybe is good bye.

9/11/11

I know. I'm useless. Didn't do anything with brain.


Just now, I so scared I will lose you. I don't want to!!!!!

Sorry, I hurt myself again.

7/11/11

Yesterday was my birthday.
I'm kinda looking forward to it.
I'm very happy.
I'm really happy that you celebrate my birthday with me even your body not in the perfect form.
Thanks honey.
This is one of my happiest moment in my life.

2/11/11

Feeling awful. This feeling really bad. I don't want this kind if feeling. But what can I do.

21/10/11

This is the last 5 days I will be sitting inside the class room.
I really can't believe that.
I finishing my secondly school.
I really hope the time would just stop, or just slow down.
Time really leave you behind with no mercy.


Sometimes I really want to tell you what I feel.
But I really don't know how to speak it out.
This is really kinda funny.

Forever, this is more further then tomorrow.
But it won't be too far.

The marriage, it is not the grave of love.
For me, it is the start of a new life, new challenge.
I want to build a family with you.
For you maybe is funny.
Because it is still far away.
But I really hope it come faster.
I don't care I old faster.
I just want to marry you.

15/10/11

Last day at school.
Kinda miss it, but we must continue with my life.


I want to feel important to you.
I feel like I'm your nobody.

Maybe you will think that i'm so selfish.
You know what, maybe I was.
Sorry about it, but I really feeling unhappy.
This will just go on for a few hours only.
Maybe you won't know.
Sometimes I hope you know, but sometimes I don't.

I want freedom!!!

I really don't like to go on a trip with family.
Not that I what.
Just that they all the time go some place boring.
All the time just will benefit them only.
They never think of what I wanted.
They always think that what they wanted is what I wanted.
That is totally not!!!
I want freedom.
I want something that you will never understand!!!

13/10/11

There are less then a month till graduation.
 Kinda miss it.
 But this is time.
 They take no prisoner.
 For me, I really not planing to go further study.

 These few days really so precious for me.
 This will be my last memory of Kwang Hua. Future is full of unknown.
 You will never know what happen.

9/10/11

Some of the people never know when to stop.
They are brainless.
And never care of other people feeling.
All they wanted is...

In politely, I would ask someone to go away properly.
But for them, this is how I will ask.
Get the fuck away. Who do you think you are? Do yoh still think you have friend?? Sorry, but you don't. Your attitude is the causes of these thing. Do you ever respect someone? Do you respect someone older then you? Do you ever treat someone as a friend and no a tool???
Sorry, but I don't think you are.

Why always take advantage of people?
Who the fuck you think you are?? You are just a loser that don't know yourself is a loser.
Why always go to a place that you shouldn't be there???

There is so many why, but there is one answer for you from me,
GET THE FUCK OFF!!!!

6/10/11

I can't believe there are 1 more month till my birthday.
18 years had pass.
By that day, I will had grown up.

I really think too much.
The future I had been thinking is a bit far.
But in not long I will need to face it.
In the book "how to be rich", I had learn something.

Planing.
To make something work, you need to know how to plan.
I did had my plan.
My plan is,
1) start working and bought my first car, Honda City.
2) own a home.
3) marry you.
4) have my own family.

And my life time target, Audi R8

Some of it may look nonsense.
But this is what I wanted.
I may had plan too long, but this is really all I wanted.
That is all.
My future is when you are here with me.
You may say sometime would had happened.
But I never think of it.
I want you be with me till the end of my life.
I really hard to live without you.

Ng Chooi Teng, I love you.
I really can't live without you.

5/10/11

There is been a while since I last time update my blog.
There is a question: What will you do if I go to study at Taiwan?

This is a very tough question to answer.
I wanted to follow, but what will I do there?
I really not planning to study anymore.
If you are leaving to Taiwan, all I can do is...
Nothing.
Really nothing.
I really wish you stay here, but there is no way I will stop your future.
All I can do is let you go.
Let you to a place where you been hoping to.


I really hope my future life there is you in it.
But sometime this is life.
You had to do the way is was and not the way you wanted.
I maybe was meant to lose you.
I don't want to!!!

Today you didn't go to school.
I feeling a bit uncomfortable, feeling something empty.
When I looked at your place, I saw other people and not you.
Feeling disappointed.
I miss you smile, your voice.

13/9/11

Life is never is a flat road.
So as Love.
My best friend relationship I think is in crisis.
I hope they can go through it.
As a lover, you need to think about the other half.
They maybe with accompany you till your life end.
When they don't know what you thinking, the problem will shown out.
Although someone will think that the other half should know you.
Sorry, but I don't think so.
Human mind can think of many think.
How he or she will know what you thinking?
For example, now I can confirm that you are thinking not just one thing.

Life is full or challenges.
You can't avoid it.
All you can do is face it with all you have.
Love road is never flat.
The will be blocks along it.
You need to take out your brave and conquer it.
You need to take the hand beside you and take him or her through also.

8/9/11

I finally make up my mind.
I will leave the past behind and live in today and future.
For some reason, there are something you shouldn't ask and shouldn't do.
Something you didn't knew it is better.
It may be a nightmare for you.

You can't blame your faith.
All you can blame is yourself.
If you going to ask me why, sorry, I couldn't answer that question.


Hope I can do what I had said.

7/9/11

The sun will set everyday.
But there are lesser and lesser people knew that the nature beauty.
All they all care about is Money.
I really wanted a camera and a lifetime to take down all these beautiful nature beauty.
Tell the world that they had miss the beauty of the world.

Although some one said before that something don't know is better then know it,
But some times you curious will kill your.
It will make you want to figure it out.

I know the truth is ugly, and sometimes you even hope it doesn't happen.
But what had happen is happen.
All you need to do is just face it.

But do you have that kind of braveness?
That is a biggest problem.

Before you learn to gain anything, you need to learn to lose something.
That is a theory that many people don't accept.
But for me, it is totally correct.
I loss many thing.
Many things that I never think I will loss.

For some reason, I think that life is sucks.
Sometimes life just give you that kind of thing that you doesn't work for.
As like me, life gave me something that really crazy.
But what I can do?
All I can do is just accept it.
It is a bit painful and hard, but I still accept it for some reason.

I didn't agree what R-Truth, one of the WWE superstar said everytime when he entered the ring"The truth will set you free".


The truth is never beautiful, but I'm ready.

9/5/11

this photo is taken at the Kuala Selangor
and i know it has not theme...


I really happy with it...
I made it...
haha~
but there are still adventure ahead...
and I'm ready to accept that...
because i want to let you know that my love can be challenged....

The starting of school made me had no enough sleep...
making me lose my energy...
but there and 2 weeks before the graduation exam and i not really feel it is coming...
haha~
this problem is big...
because graduation exam is the exam that will see got qualified to take that certificate...
haiz...
don't care about it le...



already with you for 11days le~^^~
i still very happy a~^^~
thank you for everything
i'm sorry what i did last saturday...


I love you

26/8/11

It is really crazy that I continue run non-stop.
This is the very first I time and the last time I did it.
And I love it ao much.

In the past sports day...
I used to just run in one category...
but this year...
I run 6...
For me it is crazy...

All my personal category lose...
What a pity...
But I did won a champion!!!
In 8x100
My leg really hurt...
But for me never mind...
I did it all for my class...
And even I lose my leg is ok...


I'm thinking of future now...
What will it like???
Totally is a mystery...
But one thing I can sure is...
I'm still waiting for you...
Waiting for your yes...
When will you say yes?

I really scared now...
Scared that losing you...
Haha...
It sound a bit crazy...
But I really scared it...
You are the one that brought me in to this lovely world...
Then you are the one that will bring me to future...
Maybe I'm not good enough...
That is why your answer is still no...

17/8/11

Today is the third day after that incident...
I started to feel much much better now...
I start to be happy me...
Just that I still waiting for your reply...
Because your choice will decide my future...
But now all I can do is hope only...
From these few days chat I feel that my chances is getting lower and lower...
This is the thing I don't want to see...
I hate it...

Curse you for all the people that think that love is a toy...
I hate all of you that think love is a game!!!
If possible...
You will get "pay" for what you have done!!!

For now...
I can do nothing...
All I can do is hope...
And wish that my dream will come true...

I love you...
This is not a joke...

16/8/11

Today is the second day...
I feel better now...
I been thinking a lot...
Will we stuck in this relationship???
I really don't want that we stuck in this relationship...

When you said that you want to follow the feeling...
I really scared that we will stuck in this relationship...
Because there are something that I can't do...
Such as told my parent that you are the one I love..
you are the one that I person that I want to spent my whole life with it...
I can't date you out often...
Maybe I can't called it a date...

I want to tell people that you are my girlfriend...
Will I have that chance???
This only you can decide...
Because I'm ready...

I really love you...
Maybe that is some fake in it...
But all I can say is...
All these word is totally truly from the bottom of my heart...

15/8/11

Today is the second day I been thinking about it...
All I can say is I really made the wrong action...
I should not speak it out...
But what had happened is cannot undo...
All i can do is continue...
The trust from you to me is still not strong enough...
I will try to make that bond stronger...

14/8/11

today is my sadest day...
this is what life looks like...
crual...
for the first time i cried...
i really stupid...
thinking of something that is impossble...
i.m so no use...
wait a whlie also cannot...
totally is a failure...
maybe you reject me is the good thing for you a...
you can find someone more good a...

14/8/11
this day will be in me till forever...
because this is the day that i cried for you...
i never thought that i will cried...

14/8/11

sometimes when heart told you to do this...
your body hard to speak it out...

i want to speak out that word...
but where is my braveness...
i want it...
i hunger for it...
i need that action now...
but..
all i can do is hope someday i can done it...

sacrifice...
that is one thing you need to learn before you get something...
for things that i want it now...
i will rather loss everything to earn that thing...
that just one thing...

11/8/11

today i really disappointed...
but this is what we called life~~
not everything in your life will go the way you planned...
there is always a block in front...
you need to have the braveness to conquer it...
for me~~
it is really hard...


that time your said you can't go~~
really for the first time i feel want to cry~
so hard to say out how i feel that time...
never mind la~~
i think i ok le~

life is a challenge...
but in this challenge you need to win~
no matter how also you need to win...


everything in life you gain it by something you trade it out...
you need to learn to loss something before you gain something...
i already loss something le...
can i gain it now???

is the timing right now???
when is the timing???
haiz...

28/7/11

台湾的第三天～
我们下午就到营地去建营帐...
建好后就要去做大型营具...
我和几位童军就负责间旗杆...
我们被人讲我们的旗杆为什么要绑那么多结...
他就告诉我们如果在10分钟内建不成...
就用他们的方法...
我们就捉紧时间...
快快将它绑好...
绑好后虽然没有计时...
但是我们猜测大约是8～9分钟...
因为我们刚刚去全团大露营啊...
对那个架子熟了...
就绑很快...

之后就自由活动...
我和几位童军就开始去找徽章换...
如果没有错的话...
我们第一天就到菲律宾的营地换章了...
我成功换得了一个领扣和一个代表团的徽章...

第一天真的蛮无聊的...
但是也开始懂得童军的换章...
就很像买卖东西的...
要懂得讨价还价...
很开心...

晚餐后...
我们就坐在营地门口看美女...
哈哈～
看到不管是男的还是女的...
就死命和他们打招呼...
超爽的！！！

在营地的第一天就这样过了...
但是很开心啊...

24/7/11

这是台湾的告诉公路旁的风景

在第二天...
那边的时间和马来西亚几乎可说是没有时差...
唯一的是...
那边的5点好像马来西亚的7～8点...
所以我们在5点多起来了...
起来去洗刷的路上...
刚好我们住在台北101的对面的国小...
所以早上看到的101塔加上橙色的天空...
简直是美及了！

起来后我们就去吃早餐...
我忘了我叫什么面了...
但是很好吃！

吃完后我们就到7-11买水喝...
他们那边卖的水真是恐怖的多啊！
你根本很难做出选择啊！
但是我们还是买了各自不同的水...
然后互相分享...

之后我们就收拾行李...
因为我们将出发到高雄...
但是我们到高雄时...
我们先到台北的故宫博物馆和中正纪念堂...

我们先到中正纪念堂...
站在门口的两个很像人像的其实是真的人来的！
他们连动都没有动啊！
他们的步操真的是恐怖的齐啊！！！

故宫真的收藏了很多很美的古物...
可惜不能拍照啊！！！
里面你要看什么都有啊...
从黄帝到清朝都有...
陶器...雕刻...
全部都很美！！！

我们在途中有停在一个休息站...
我们就到里面买东西吃...
那时我才知道真正台湾香肠的味道...
马来西亚的美那么好吃...
那边的才好吃！！！
吃完后就继续出发...

5个小时后我们整个马来西亚团在一间餐厅吃...
那边的食物不错啊～
之后就继续到佛光童军的基地...
我们到达时被佛光童军热情的招待...
我在那时认识了不少佛光童军...

之后我们就开个会议说说明天的行程...
之后就去睡觉了...

21/7/11

今天决定写出第一天的台湾之旅...
第一天是9号...
我们在10点的飞机从LCCT出发...
我们大约在2点到达...

我们被台湾童军接我们...
我们从桃园机场到台北的信誉国小...
在巴士上看到很多很美的风景...

我们在信誉国小放下行李后就换下上半生的制服...
然后去师大夜市...
在里面有很多东西吃啊...
迟点把照片上传...
他们的珍珠奶茶这是很大杯又好喝...
重点是...
我们可以吃烤猪肉！！！
真是sibeh好吃...
哈哈～～

之后我们就到国小睡觉了...
一天就这样过了...

11/7/11(post by iPhone)

Me now at Taiwan.
For the first time, me at outside Malaysia without my parent.
I'm so excited.

Maybe I'm not the one for you.
I really only can be your friend.
So let it be like that.
I want to be with you, but we can't.
Never mind.
I'll find the new way.

That is all for now.
I'll write it in details.
Bye for now.

6/7/11

Today is Chai Yee Birthday...
Wish her happy birthday...
and she get happiness...


I really hate my life now...
I feel like I'm living in the jail...
never mind...
you will know what I will do to let myself free...
I really hate you all...
hate my life!!!!
sometime I really want to end my life!!!
I hate now!!!

5/7/11

Today still have 4 more days I/m leaving Malaysia...
can't wait till that day~^^~
for who those I promise...
I sure will bring back something for you all...~^^~
haha...

Love really is a strange and funny thing...
it can come anything and leave where even they want...
I think I'm started to grow up...
starting to think mature le...

never mind for it now...
all my target is for myself...
Maple Ching
Gambateh...
you need to get at least a medal in sport...
and you need to build up you abs!!!!!
this is important...

28/6/11(post by iPhone)

I really want to know, why I can't get any respect?!
All I want is sone respect, I did try to earn it.
But from what I see. All had fail!
Maybe this is my life, never will gain what I try so hard to get it.
This is my faith. I had totally lose to my faith. It had made me crazy.

Love us really strange and funny thing. Because you will never know which moment you will fall in love with someone.
I really try to wait for you. But from your blog I found out that you still live in your nightmare.
You still haven't cone out yet.
I try to pull you out, but you refuse.
Maybe I still no good enough to pull you out.
I'm not your mr. Right.

Never mind. Time for me is up. Time to let it pass.
But the way you SMS me, I already know my hope is very low. but i don't why I still put so big hope on it.

Sometimes your don't have the power to change your faith.

18/6/11( post using iPhone)

Today damn shui! Because of my sister me kena GAO GAO lat.
Why always is me???
Someone that I loved like ignoring me.
Family making me crazy.
When can I get a life that I wanted?


Everything has a price tag.
Meaning that when you want something, you have to pay for it.
And every things happened there had some reason behind it.
Noting will happened without reason.

This time I didn't get my love maybe is because I hurt someone in last relationship.
So this time I won't get my love.
That's a bit unfair for me, but what can I do?
I try to change the faith but never works.
Is there any other way to do it?
I want that love!!!
Because it's important to me.
I really can't imagine a world without she.
Maybe that day I won't be as happy as now.
When I sad, I will try to think the happy moment with you.
That really make me smile back.
For you Maybe is a nightmare, but for me is the happiest moment is my life.




Really hate my sister now!!!
Never think of others!!!
All they think about is they happy they ok Le.


For the first time, I scold bad words is my blog!!!!
Because I reLly can't hold it anymore!!!
Fuck you!!!where is your bloody mind???all is the hell, right!!!
Really hope you will get pay. But y all the time need to pay the most!!!

This time I lost my car Le. I almost lost everything in my life.
Love, trust, respect, and car.
For many people of you think that it's nothing,
But for me, it's everything!!!

16/6/11

末班车by萧煌奇...
this song make me feel so sad...
is there any chances for me???
i hate this kind of feeling!!!
I feel that the distance is getting further and further...
feel like we can't talk...
we can't chat...
maybe 我没那种命...
but never mind...
even i hate...
i will also wait...

11/06/11

hate this kind of life...
you will never get what you want...
that is not a problem...
but how do you feel when you every time lose everything that you try so hard to gain...

maybe in my life...
i will never gain respect...
never will get what i want even i work so hard to gain it...

maybe this is my destiny...
i can't get what i want...
i lose everything that i work so hard on...
i want to scream out loud...

i really starting to hate my life...

11/6/11

today...
thank Ivan and Thimes...
for let me release tension...

today noon go to 1u with Ivan and Thimes...
we saw Chevrolet...
many of it...
beautiful and expensive...
I really hope to had it a!!!
but never will...
haiz...
then we had lunch...

after that we got to had our stress out on the amusement park...
so fun because I didn't done it for a long time...

then they took me back and grab my car...
then we go to setia alam
me had our dinner then we go lim teh...
this time is a bit different...
because we drink beer...
i drink 2 large bottle de...
and suddenly Ah Chooi called and told me the time need to reached there...
and by that time...
i already drink 1 and a half big beer...
haiz...
it's all too late...


If someone love you...
they will never think of what you had done to him...
they will only think of the times that you been with him and all the happy memories...
they don't care about your past or future...
all they care about is now...



I Love You...

10/6/11

the day is getting close to school...
I hate school so much...
because every movement in school is been watched...
and I hate it very much...

maybe is time to lock my blog...
because I'm thinking of writing more private thing...
only some people are allow to look inside...

I really want to be your someone...
but...
haha~~
stupid, idiot, foolish, and failure me...
this world sometimes it had no fair...
but...
when you gain a thing...
then you will loss a thing...
sometimes the changes is not fair...
but all you can do is accept that offer...
I will use almost everything to change the time with you...

everything had it's own reason to happened like this and some don't...
that is why never ask for reason for any problem...
just ask for solution in every problem...
there is no problem that couldn't been solved...
if cannot solved by one person...
then use two person to solved...
if two person cannot...
then use three...
and so on...
there is no problem that couldn't been solved...
just that do you have that heart to solve it or the other way around...

life is full of problems and surprises...
today you maybe happy..
but tomorrow you maybe death...
life is never long...
so you need to make use of every minute in every second...
make every minute count...
do something that you never think you would...
because maybe that will make you saw something that you had miss this whole time...
never look down on the power of hope...
it can make someone be powerful...
strong then he ever was...
and I felt now...

Remember...
life is a weakest things in the universe...
you must make your every breath count...
don't waste you breath...
do what you like or you think is worth...
never let a regret in your life...

7/5/11

today went to sunway...
we reached there by 10.30am...
after that we go and get some ticket...
we watched "X-Men first class"
it's a not bad movie...
i like it...

after that...
we went for a walk is the sunway mall...
sometimes you will miss many things when you walk fast...
but this time...
we walk slowly...
i found out many things...
although many things can't be told...
haha~~


life is a thing that is full of surprise...
you won't be able to know what will happen on the next second....
sometimes worse things happen...
and sometimes good things happen...
but what ever happen...
remember to not loss your hope...
hope is the source of every good thing...
when you have a hope...
you will have the will...
when you have the will...
you will have the power of will and the will to let it happen...


I'm really hoping my hope will came true...
will it be true???
only the god will know...
I'd try my best...
the rest is up to the faith...


the happiness on today won't be forget by me...
because I really hope time can froze and stop at that moment...
let me feel that very good moment in my life...
even now that moment still float in my mind...
really enjoying...

5/6/11

今天刚从关丹回家...
和全团去...
蛮开心的...

第一天...
我早上5点起床...
然后去冲凉...
冷到啊！！！
但是很怀念...
因为每次我一在学校过夜...
就会早上5点起来冲凉...
冲完后就换衣...
集队后就将东西搬上巴士...
到达后...
就开始将营帐搭起...
之后就开始过站游戏...
我就自己到沙滩玩沙...
和劲勋拍了些照片...
我们的晚餐是BBQ...
晚餐后就开始康乐活动...
他们的营舞我完全没有去学...
哈哈～～
过后就去睡了...
但是睡不久就被叫醒啊！！！
我都模模糊糊地去集队...
被骂一顿...


第二天...
早上吃完早餐就去玩paintball...
超爽的啊！！！
我们的队伍被分散到男女一起...
我的队伍没有想到我们能进到4强...
在半决赛败给贻国队伍...
哈哈！！！
虽然不满意...
但是他们公平地赢了...
我没有想到我的队伍的人愿意听我的作战计划...
很谢谢他们...
之后就去吃晚餐...
晚餐后就营火会...
营火会的过程很爽啊...

第三天...
我们就8点起来...
吃了早餐就去拍照...
拍完就收拾回家...


晚上我做在营地看着沙滩...
很希望和你在那里漫步...
每天都几乎梦见你...
哈哈～～
日有所思...
夜有所梦...
哈哈～～

1/6/11

today is the start of June...
every good thing start with a happy start...
and i just had it...
haha~~
this is life...
you never know what will happen on the next moment...
maybe good thing...
maybe worst thing will happen...

but for now...
i willing to accept all the bad thing that will happen...
because i just had the good moment of my life...
i really hope that time would stop at that moment...
because that kind of thing won't happen the next time...
but i still hoping for next time...
but will it come???
only the god will know...

we'll never know what will happen on the next moment...
enjoy this moment...

31/05/11

gonna use back english to write blog...
maybe just today...

kind of boring past through day without any target...
don't feel like going through days like these...
really hoping for any changes of any extra on my life...
really hate past through day like a robot...
I'm a human!!!
I want my life is a happy life...
not a life that is control by other people...
but...
when I will get this kind of life???
when will freedom come???
maybe it won't come at all...

today almost is the most least sms...
feeling kind of something less...
something not right...

love really is a strange and funny thing...
love always play the fool on you...
even you have a cool side of you...
you will also fall in love...

love is sweet and bitter thing...
sweet memory and bitter memory will go in to your mind in the same time...



I'm a failure...
never done anything in the perfect way...
never do anything right...
my life never on track...


when is the timing???
when is the right time???

tomorrow will be the right timing???
only the God know...

30/5/11

今天已经是5月的最后第二天...
距离死亡期越来越靠近了...
哈哈～～
昨天从布城会来...
在布城...
做了很恐怖的事...
尽然驾车去KLIA...
这真的很够力...
因为在营地很闷...
没有什么事做加上太多人了...

曾经是曾经...
过去是过去...
那些东西讲会阻止你前进...
阻碍了你的视线...


最进我真的很不幸...
做什么都不顺...
亲情，友情和爱情都很不顺...
哈哈～～
可能我没有人缘吧...
自己过生活...
朋友少得可怜...
可能我没有人缘吧...
事事都不顺...
何时我的生命才会上轨道？？？

陈小春-《没那种命》
爱情这东西 没道理的
有人很强手 有人没资格
路是人走的 我害怕什么
大不了 别爱了
她像个天仙 她太美了
我那么平凡 我开不了口
心里面晓得 追她的结果
幸运的 不是我
我没那种命啊 她没道理爱上我
英雄和美人哪 是一国的
只怪 爱人太少了 对手太好了
劝自己别傻了 以前甭提了
以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀 输也不会轮到我
爱情老是缺货 我争什么
时间 越来越少了 越来越老了
我剩下一个梦
她走过来对我说 其实我错了 她爱我
她走过来对我说 其实你错了 我爱你

我真的没有那种命...

20/5/11

今天...
对很多人是520...
也就是“我爱你”
但是我却没有这种命...
没有人我可以告诉她“我爱你”
唯有对着家人与朋友...
哈哈～～

今天去看POTC 4...
很好看...
Johnny Depp很搞笑一下的...
哈哈～～

和你去看...
我没有想到我有这种勇气约你出来看戏勒...
哈哈～～
可能吃了豹子胆吧...
约你去看戏是想让你暂时放松下...
哈哈～～
不想看到你那么累...
希望你今天能有个安眠的睡眠...


今天踢了一场足球...
因为人数太多了...
很难分辨...
所以就哪一队被进球了就要脱衣...
没想到尽然是我的队...
被对方进了一粒球...
没办法啊...
唯有遵守咯...
可是我队以脱衣...
尽然全部的实力增加了...
进了很多球...
哈哈～～
谢谢他们...
因为我做守门员是被人进了一粒...
他们没有责怪我...
我真的和想进球啊...
但是我没有这种实力...
唯有做后卫...
我很想做sudden attack的后卫...
但是我没有带球的技巧...
唯有传咯...

出去吃时...
和妹妹吵架...
妈的！！！
西北不爽她！！！
妈的！！！

刚好回到家时...
凯杰就叫我去打篮球...
刚好我要发泄！！！
真好...
去到时有人在打...
唯有在旁边等候...
他们打完后便去要求一起打...

哈哈～～我不能不承认老了...
我的气真的越来越短了...
真是失败...


多希望还能和你出去...
但是会还有机会吗？？？
这真的是一个未知数...

18/5/11

明天的考试...
完全放弃...
哈哈～～
物理，历史...
再见了咯...

今天一个人在球场上射球...
那么大的龙门...
我不能100%进球...
看来我真的很差...
我很想将我的球技再进步点...
没有其他的办法了吗？？？

学校几乎全部人都在读书...
加上学校只有打篮球的人...
踢球的人确实爱玩solo的...
他们踢的...
根本不是足球...
难道学校只是有篮球却没有真正会踢球的人了吗？？？

可能有些人会认为...
足球哪里好看...
22个人抢一粒球...
加上时间长...
还有进球很少...

其实足球精彩的地方在于合作...
足球场上你一个人不能做完全部的事情...
全部人都有自己的岗位...
你们会说篮球也有啊...
但是篮球可以不传球从自己的地方冲到对方的地方...
足球却不能...
一定要有团队精神...
不然必败...

真的很希望有一个真正喜欢踢球的人每一天陪我踢...
但是是不可能的啦...
要是当初学校有足球队...
我一定会进去的...
但是可惜没有...
haiz...

我的足球同伴啊...
你在哪里...
你能出来陪我踢吗？？？

13/5/11

今天我的mercurial 进球了...
买了蛮久的...
终于在昨天的比赛中进球了...
哈哈～～


人生就如一场球赛...
下一秒将发生什么事我们都不懂的...
唯有拼命活下去...

不一定所有的付出会的到回报...
就好像所有射出去的球不一定会进到龙门...

人生和爱情一样...
要懂得付出但是不求回报...
因为它就像和射出去的球一样...
不一定会进龙门...
但是有付出就够了...

其实有很多事情可以很开心的完成...
就好象开开心心踢一场球...
陪你一起完成的人...
真的是很开心的...
进不进球是次要...
主要是你有踢这一场球...


唯有在球场上...
我能将一切的事放一边...
开心地去踢一场球...

9/5/11

昨天是母亲节...
也是外婆出殡额的那一天...
这一天是最不好过的一天...
可能是因为和某人聊天...
看开了一点...

外婆...
你的离去的却让我觉得生命中少了一个人...
少了一个人...
真的很不舍...
但是这就是人生...
总有一天会离开...
但是对于你的离开我都还没有心理的准备...
我还在等待和你去吃早餐...
但是已经没有机会了...
唯有在回忆里...
当他们把你的玻璃盖拿起时...
我的泪水开始打滚了...
全部人除了我和我妈都去摸你...
我只是静静从旁边看着你...
看着熟睡着的您...
我的泪就开始落下了...
因为我的手有泪水...
再见了...
外婆...

人生只有短短的几十年罢了...
再强的人都有死去的一天...
要懂得珍惜...
人生会有几轮...
谁都不懂...


珍惜...
很多人都不懂得...
都要等到失去后才懂得...
但是下一次也会发生一样的事...

人...
几乎可以说成最冷血的动物...

4/5/11

以前的我认为喜欢就想拥有...
但是...
很奇怪的...
这次我并不想拥有...
只希望能为她付出...
哈哈～～

其实当我告诉她我喜欢她时...
考虑了很久...
因为一旦说了很多东西都会跟着改变...
我其实在等着一个好的时机想亲口告诉她...
但是不小心说出来了！！！
告诉她的第一天...
我很怕改变...
很怕不能在和她说笑...
也很怕不能再载她回家...
很庆幸什么都没有改变...
但是我为他付出的时间有限...
因为下个星期或下下个星期...
她将自己驾车来了...
虽然有点不想...
但是该发生的都要发生...

我很想当你的圣诞老人...
圣诞老人在晚上将礼物放在圣诞树下...
却不让小孩子看到她的真面目...
只懂得付出...
不求回报...

真的希望你能忘记所有爱情带来的苦...
而相信爱情...
不管你未来的人是谁...
我都希望你能走出爱情的黑暗...

我在期待没有结果的结果...

哈哈～～
看到这的你一定会再骂我笨蛋了吧...

2/5/11

其实我我刚才还没打算和你说我喜欢你的咯...
我应该根本还没有打算告诉你的念头...
只是希望默默为你付出罢了...^^
其实我最快乐的时候是载你回家时...
哈哈～～我在怀疑我有没有做错事...
让你懂是好事还是坏事？？？
我自己都不懂...

爱情的痛...
你我都怕...
曾经有一次...
我妹妹在车上讲我们...
并播了《再见单身》...
还说了我已经再见单身...
其实我还没有...
也没有想过（其实有时想的啦）...
然后我就播了《我们都怕痛》...
爱情的却很痛...
这两首歌都唱出了我的心身...
我希望是和你《再见，单身》...
但是《我们都怕痛》...


现在你已经有车了...
不需要我载了...
不怕告诉你...
我真的很庆幸我住在Shah Alam...
因为这样我就能载你...
也许你会问...
如果你住吧生你是不是不会载我了？？？
告诉你...
我不会不载你...
但是只有住Shah Alam能只是载你回...
加上能偷偷地看你的侧脸不被人发现...
还有你的眼睛和头发...
其实也很美...
我也深深地爱上你的眼睛...

每天载你回时...
真的很希望你的车没在家...
但是始终还是出现了...
没办法...
这是天安排的...

哈哈～～
不管什么结果...
我都还是会喜欢你...
默默为你付出...



祝你天天开心...
天天吃到饱饱...
天天没有事要忙...
天天出入平安...
天天睡到饱饱...
还有最重要的：
一定要天天幸福...

27/4/11

今天妹妹的班际篮球赛...
我觉得其实他们能赢的...
只是差点罢了...
哈哈...
不用紧...
星期五再来...

今天载ah ma, ah cui 和凯芹去洗脸...
过后洗完后本来要去sixxbar吃...
但是因为我妈妈在等我吃...
所以一定要回家...



今天学到了蛮多东西...
也付出了很多...
但是很开心啊！！！
~^^~

有时候我们驾车会错过很多很美的东西...
因为太快了...
有时候...
走路也能看到你曾经错失的一切...

突然间觉得自己好没用！！！
做什么事的都没有什么勇气...
朋友少之又少...
可能我永远都只能一个人活吧...
一个人的生活...
有时感到很孤单...
很想找你...
但是却怕烦到你...
我真的很开心能为你付出...
我的付出我没想过要回报的勒...
哈哈～～
这还是第一次勒...
很久没有这样的感觉了咯...
但是我知道你怕痛...
也应该还没放下吧...
哈哈～～
也可能我猜错了咯～
哈哈～～
有时我真的很笨勒...
哈哈～～




when the time will be right???
i'm still waiting that day to come...
will it come???
it's still a mystery...
but i hope it will...
because i'm hoping for that day...
~^^~

25/4/11

今天上课可说是人在但是心不在..
这还是第一次勒...
哈哈～～
原因勒...
自己也不懂勒...
就觉得啦...
哈哈...
这星期可说是超级忙啊！！！
累啊！！！
真的忙到有时希望自己是死的...
因为死后什么事都不用烦了啊...
但是去死不了...

今天华文老师上了一课叫《正气歌》
他说有一句很美的句子：
天地有正气
这句说了不管你是谁...
身体都存在着正气...

我真的决定了...
从今天起...
我将在我的课业上拼命了...

今天在童军时...
感觉到副总队长真的很难当啊！！！
什么都要理啊！！！
真的累啊！！！
今天才把竹弄好啊！！！
真的是啊...
但是忙到一半...
天不做美...
下雨了...
害我也得淋雨解决啊...
很想去发泄啊！！！
很想真正放松下！！！

高三的生活祝真的是很忙啊！！！



现在的我觉得做默默的守护者就够了...
做守护者也很开心啊！！！
最重要是我不想和你闹绯闻啊...
因为这样讲阻挡你的幸福啊！！！
~^^~

24/4/2011

今天去跑前任义山行...
跑了11km...
累得要命...
但是感觉好不错...

突然间我不想看着你的背影一起走...
想看着你的侧脸走...
不懂啊！！！
爱情就是这样...
明明说好站在身后看就够了...
但是心却像拥有她...

为了人家的幸福...
我发誓！！！
当我真正的能有能力给你幸福时才会去拥有你...
可能我没他好...
但是会尽力做到最好...

有时却想到自己是多么的没用...
一点小事都完成不了...


下一场篮球赛...
我会有充份的准备了...
我会尽力做到最好!!!
打完我全身的力!!!

期待爱

期待爱 - 林俊杰&金莎

男:My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在里面放 一份爱
Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我 实实在在
不管帅不帅

男:想要找回来 (女:想要找回来)
男:自己的节拍 (女:自己的节拍)
男:所以这一次
合:我要勇敢 大声说出来

合:期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
男:你的存在 (女:你的存在)
男:心灵感应的方向
合:我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

合:我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 靠越近越明白
男:不要走开 (女:不要走开)
男:幸福的开始 就是
合:放手去爱

男:想要找回来 (女:想要找回来)
男:自己的节拍 (女:自己的节拍)
男:所以这一次
合:我要勇敢 大声说出来

合:期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
男:你的存在 (女:你的存在)
男:心灵感应的方向
合:我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

合:我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 靠越近越明白
男:不要走开 (女:不要走开)
男:幸福的开始 就是
合:放手去爱

合:幸福的开始 就是放手去爱



很有意思的一首歌...
也充满了感觉...
让我也感觉到我在期待爱...


最幸福的是看着你最爱的人幸福...
最幸福的动作是牵着你爱的人的手走路...
这条路将是你走得最开心的路...

我在这里希望所有看此部落格的人会找到真爱...
还有...
当你们爱上了那个人...
记得...
不一定要拥有她...
为她付出将是你最开心的付出...

17/4/11

today went to PC fair with Cui Teng and her sister and friends...
kind of fun...
we arrived there at5pm...
haha...
we arrived late because of me sleep on the noon...
then we go in the pc fair...

inside the pc fair...
Cui Teng bought pendrive, mp3,memory stick, calculator, portable hardisk, and earphone...
and i bought a calculator and a earphone...
i so damn happy because i long time don't go home at 9.30++...(except of lim teh)
no matter what happened today, today is the most happiest day in my life...










Today is the best memories i had in my life...~^^~




Maple's thought:
memories, is time to let you go...
you had bother me for a long time...
is time to let you go to the back of my mind...
is time to replace with a new memories...
goodbye old life and hello new life...~^^~

sadness...

today can said that today is the most sui day i ever had...
drive 40km/h wait them also count fast...
go there take things need 1 hours...
and also trouses pao tai...
haiz...
and then reached home also kena marah....
because of the damn no brain sister...
when she will wake up...

today take de photo progress is so damn bad...
no standard...
and most important is no theme!!!
how you going to take a photo with out a theme...
and also you never told us what is the feeling that you want to looked on the photo...
haiz...

i think i better live in my own world...
i never wanted to see this world again...
it's damn horrible...
i can't accept the truth...
this world is so bad and it's getting worse...
i want to release my sadness...
tomoro go football...
and hope that no accident...

回忆...

没有想到我的部落格的第50篇是写回我以为我真的放弃了的人...
昨天整个梦境尽然是她...
我没有想过...
为什么会出现呢？？？
梦里出现我和她曾有过的所有回忆...
所有的甜回忆...
haiz...
但是过去就是过去...
都是我没用...

我有想过...
到底我有没有资格谈恋爱...

16/3/11

今天是超级月亮出现的前三天...
什么是超级月亮？？？
那就是月亮离地球的距离很靠近就叫超级月亮...
这是...
日本已经发生了40年来最严重的地震和海啸...
这两件事已经让日本的3～5个縣淹没...
但是一波未平一泼又起...
地震附近的縣的核能厂爆炸...
导致辐射泄漏...
这些辐射在空气中需要50年才能完全没有...
但是在人体内的话...
可能更久...

日本的天灾...
难道是世界末日的预兆？？？

从面子书中我看到有人发布消息说...
在2011年3月21日将是世界末日...
这个预言是真的吗？？？
我真的希望不是...
因为我还没孝敬我的父母...
还没看到我的弟妹长大...
还没结婚生子...
很多事还没做...
不希望那么快就离开...

haiz...
真的希望世界末日不会来临...
因为当世界末日来了...
就表示人类文明没有了...

现在我唯一能做的是珍惜现在和希望上天，神，菩萨能保佑这世界的人...
让我们能一起度过难关...

4/3/11

我真的那么不好吗？？？
那么小气吗？？？
还是我本来就那么不好???
我真的不知道...
因为我真的很累了...
因为我没找她...
他就没找我...

还有...
不懂是我的错觉还是什么...
我觉得我还没住进她的心里...
因为...
很难解释...

算了吧...
随机应变...

很久没写了...

其实每一天有都有事想说...
但是就是懒惰写...
就在面子书上写了...
今天和秉翰，长荣去双威买衣裤...
但是我已经买了...
所以去逛逛罢了...

在今天...
我看到几乎全部人身边都有伴侣...
觉得很羡慕...
haiz...
何时才能是我呢？？？