21/10/11

This is the last 5 days I will be sitting inside the class room.
I really can't believe that.
I finishing my secondly school.
I really hope the time would just stop, or just slow down.
Time really leave you behind with no mercy.


Sometimes I really want to tell you what I feel.
But I really don't know how to speak it out.
This is really kinda funny.

Forever, this is more further then tomorrow.
But it won't be too far.

The marriage, it is not the grave of love.
For me, it is the start of a new life, new challenge.
I want to build a family with you.
For you maybe is funny.
Because it is still far away.
But I really hope it come faster.
I don't care I old faster.
I just want to marry you.

15/10/11

Last day at school.
Kinda miss it, but we must continue with my life.


I want to feel important to you.
I feel like I'm your nobody.

Maybe you will think that i'm so selfish.
You know what, maybe I was.
Sorry about it, but I really feeling unhappy.
This will just go on for a few hours only.
Maybe you won't know.
Sometimes I hope you know, but sometimes I don't.

I want freedom!!!

I really don't like to go on a trip with family.
Not that I what.
Just that they all the time go some place boring.
All the time just will benefit them only.
They never think of what I wanted.
They always think that what they wanted is what I wanted.
That is totally not!!!
I want freedom.
I want something that you will never understand!!!

13/10/11

There are less then a month till graduation.
 Kinda miss it.
 But this is time.
 They take no prisoner.
 For me, I really not planing to go further study.

 These few days really so precious for me.
 This will be my last memory of Kwang Hua. Future is full of unknown.
 You will never know what happen.

9/10/11

Some of the people never know when to stop.
They are brainless.
And never care of other people feeling.
All they wanted is...

In politely, I would ask someone to go away properly.
But for them, this is how I will ask.
Get the fuck away. Who do you think you are? Do yoh still think you have friend?? Sorry, but you don't. Your attitude is the causes of these thing. Do you ever respect someone? Do you respect someone older then you? Do you ever treat someone as a friend and no a tool???
Sorry, but I don't think you are.

Why always take advantage of people?
Who the fuck you think you are?? You are just a loser that don't know yourself is a loser.
Why always go to a place that you shouldn't be there???

There is so many why, but there is one answer for you from me,
GET THE FUCK OFF!!!!

6/10/11

I can't believe there are 1 more month till my birthday.
18 years had pass.
By that day, I will had grown up.

I really think too much.
The future I had been thinking is a bit far.
But in not long I will need to face it.
In the book "how to be rich", I had learn something.

Planing.
To make something work, you need to know how to plan.
I did had my plan.
My plan is,
1) start working and bought my first car, Honda City.
2) own a home.
3) marry you.
4) have my own family.

And my life time target, Audi R8

Some of it may look nonsense.
But this is what I wanted.
I may had plan too long, but this is really all I wanted.
That is all.
My future is when you are here with me.
You may say sometime would had happened.
But I never think of it.
I want you be with me till the end of my life.
I really hard to live without you.

Ng Chooi Teng, I love you.
I really can't live without you.

5/10/11

There is been a while since I last time update my blog.
There is a question: What will you do if I go to study at Taiwan?

This is a very tough question to answer.
I wanted to follow, but what will I do there?
I really not planning to study anymore.
If you are leaving to Taiwan, all I can do is...
Nothing.
Really nothing.
I really wish you stay here, but there is no way I will stop your future.
All I can do is let you go.
Let you to a place where you been hoping to.


I really hope my future life there is you in it.
But sometime this is life.
You had to do the way is was and not the way you wanted.
I maybe was meant to lose you.
I don't want to!!!

Today you didn't go to school.
I feeling a bit uncomfortable, feeling something empty.
When I looked at your place, I saw other people and not you.
Feeling disappointed.
I miss you smile, your voice.